Impossible of the Impossible Made Possible

These days I really feel like God is really removing the biggest stones in my heart and really trying to show me that even the impossible of the impossible can be possible.

First off, have you ever had someone in your life you truly hated from the bottom of your heart? Have you ever had someone you encountered in life that you thought making peace was virtually impossible?

I don't know about you, but I sure did. When I look all the way back to high school, all I could see in myself was full of hatred towards some people and full of hatred towards me. I guess high school is a time when immaturity is at its peak and two people and two peaks just happens to clash.

Throughout summer, God was slowly working with me on how to battle bitterness/hatred towards people. I knew that with some people, it was always possible if you really work together and truly reconciling. And obviously, that was the easy part. Talk, apologize, forgive, and start new friendships. Its actually really easy if its somebody you don't know as well and just had a slight misunderstanding with. Even at first I thought it was hard, but somehow someway things just miraculously happened to work out. That's one example

Now just imagine. Literally one of those people who you thought that there was ABSOLUTELY no way to reconcile because of the impact and magnitude of the hatred and chaos that happened between you and that person. Hating and being hated by that person. Doing the most shadiest things to that person, while the shadiest of things strikes back at you. From freshman year in high school to the end of high school, you and that person clash, argue, talk crap, fight, and consider them one of the few you won't be able to forgive. And at the end of high school graduation, you two are off to different colleges and go different ways. You think its over then, and true it kind of is. I felt relieved because I was able to start a new life at UCI with absolutely nobody I clashed with in high school. From freshman year in college to junior year in college, I never saw that person again.

Today however ended that 4 year of not seeing that person. I just happened to randomly go out at night for a smoke. Then I realized that I was out of soap in my house, so I decided to go to Albertsons to go buy some. I grab the soap from the counter, head to the cashier, and guess who I see. Right in front of me is that person. In a flash, brings back all those memories. All those memories of what I did to that person, and all those memories of the chaos and catastrophe that happened throughout high school. We make eye contact, and I already assumed something big was going down. I gave the worst glare I could possibly give, and he looked back and asked, "What the? Bryan?" I reply, "Yeah." I was anticipating on what he was going to do next. Literally I thought it was going down right in front of the cashier. I clinch my fist, get ready to strike, and the most unimaginable of the unimaginable happens. He brings out his hand, and says "Dude, good to see you man." In my mind I was seriously like "Wait, this can't be right. Still gotta be on my guard." I was so sure something bad was going to happen to the point where it felt like I was going all in with a royal flush in my hand and there was no way I would be wrong. Impossible of the impossible, I was wrong on my anticipation. We ended up talking, and amazingly a new friendship was formed. I'm sitting here typing this right now and I still can't believe what just happened. Can you imagine, just randomly going to a market at night just to get soap and you end up making peace with someone that you thought was virtually impossible and you feuded enormously since you were a freshman year in high school. That imagination for me, actually became a reality. One of the BIGGEST stone in my heart, is finally removed. God just gave me a big WOW to my head. Truly, God really does do some of the most mind-boggling things in life.

I always thought that the saying of "Anything is possible" was just a dream. Its starting to actually become a reality now. It really opened new doors of opportunity to the impossible obstacles I can overcome. Impossible obstacles such as quitting smoking, my inhering bitterness and thoughts on girls being really shady, getting over that inhering bitterness towards girls and actually giving me thoughts on starting a relationship again, getting into USC Grad school with the grades I have right now, rebuilding my image I ruined a couple months ago, and even becoming a Recomm leader even though my app got rejected. Most importantly, more than anything else, it all starts with my walk with God. I was doing so well earlier in the year, climbed so high, and hit rock bottom. I was trying so hard to come back up and came to the point where I gave up because nobody wanted to accept me as the same person I was when I was doing spiritually well. Slowly, God was taking baby steps with me, showing me what to do in the long run before I make any big jumps. Really, I don't know where I am to be honest. But one thing I know for sure is that its not me or anyone else that'll make these dreams possible. It's only up to God and I know for sure that whatever happens now, it will be the best for my growth and how I will learn to properly serve the Lord with all my heart.