Theres a time in life when you have to make tough and critical decisions that could really be responsible of how well things are secured in the long run. Never thought I would come across such decisions, but the time has come.
As I enter the ripe age of 22, I'm out of college, and spending my days looking for a job. Not going to lie, it's been really tough. I google and look for jobs, and a lot of these jobs aren't even entry level even though they say it is. It's funny because I see "entry level job" and the requirements say that you need lie 3 years experience. Funny, and sad.
Lately since I've been out of school and without a job, I've been having a lot of free time. Its always nice to hang out with close friends, and enjoy meals and talks. Its really nice to not worry about having class the next day knowing that you're done with school for life (or maybe until grad school can come into the picture). Its also nice to enjoy the things I normally like to do, such as going to the gym and working out while not hesitating to make a decision to ditch class or not.
Other than that, yeah I haven't been too productively lately. While having a deep conversation with my dad the other day, he told me that life has 3 chapters. He said I completed the first one, which was graduating college. The second chapter he told me referred to my career. I asked him if its supposed to be this hard finding a career. He just responds back saying thats up to your effort. He told me that these upcoming months ahead of me are crucial in the long run and that I need make sure that nothing hinders me from succeeding.
As a I plan to take my first actuary license exam, I came to a conclusion that I need to stop a certain habit. That main habit is something I really don't want to give up, but its hanging out and socializing with people. Although it is a good thing, it also has its bad because I've been overdoing it and wasting time as well. Its weird because I'm such an extrovert, but I realized that it also came to be my biggest weakness as well. I never studied jack crap in college, and always relied on my procrastination skills (which really didn't do me too well). But at the same time, I'm glad that God taught me a valuable lesson in procrastinating. Please don't attempt to do what I say hahah, but while actually taking a full day to just study, I learned so much and so quickly after not feeling pressured with time. I guess all that procrastinating in college really did come to my advantage now that I can learn quicker in a short amount of time, but this time having all the time I need.
Back to the main point, what I'm trying to say is that I need to complete this journey ALONE. It's really up to me whether I want to succeed or not. While I was in Cambodia, I promised a dear brother that just became a pastor that I'd help him financially and go back one day to build a church with him. Not only that, my dad also told me to really work hard and support my future family well, as the economy really is getting worse and worse. I also came to realize how much my dad gave up for me, my bro, and my mom to live so well the past 20 something years, and I want to do the very same. Even right now as we're going through a finance crisis, my mom told me something that seriously inspired me. My mom told me that my dad not only worked hard for our sakes, but for other family members and friends as well. He helped my uncle who was facing a finance crisis, paid medical bills for a sick friend who faced cancer and a divorce, helped churches by donating over thousands of dollars for missions and God's glory. And even to this day, even though my dad has no job, sells his 90K car, gives up his own luxurious expenses for our family's sakes. When I asked him how he pulled off such things, he just told me that God leads, but its up to you if you want to follow.
So, to end this blog, I'm going to dedicate the next 2+ months studying for my actuary exams and passing them for God's glory. So I'll be deactivating Facebook, stop checking Tumblr, and sadly I'll be cutting hanging out and socializing by 99%. Even lately I've been realizing that some people are in huge danger in the future as they're wasting their lives away in this turmoil economy. I don't want my future family to go through crisis and I will fulfill the promise I made to my friend. In order to make this all possible, I need to take advantage of how I start off and really take initiative. Even though people can mess up in school, there's always redemption by studying harder. But, if you don't take initiative and action in your future career and just loaf around in this ridiculous economy thats bound to get much much much worse, theres really no hope and no second chance as well. I wouldn't be surprised if I see homeless Asians out in the streets 10 years from now, and I can already see it being very possible by how their living their lives right now.
To sum this up, I don't want anything to hinder and distract my focus. Not going to post this on Tumblr, or Facebook, and I hope people will just forget my existence the next 2 months. The only thing that I will check is email, and sure I'll make the time to respond back to emails. I don't mind having lunch with people once in a while, but yeah I won't be around too much. I hope y'all can understand, and probably people are gonna be hella confused why I'm isolating myself so suddenly. I just hope I don't get calls and texts why I deactivated Facebook and why I'm not around lately. I guess for people that really do care, I appreciate that. But other than that, I don't know who'll read this. Probably my closest friends and people that care. Thanks guys for understanding, and if you really do need to get in touch with my for any reason, just email me at bryan.sk.kang@gmail.com or just call my cell. Even though I'll be on a really strict timing schedule, I'll make some time for those that actually care =].
