2010: A New Decade and New Beginnings

Wow first post of 2010 already. Weird because I don't update this very often too, but I guess I'll update since I'm bored and have things on my mind.

I still can't believe I'm entering the third decade of my life. Now that I think about it, it's going to be one of the most different, fun, challenging, and changing decade. In other words, imagine graduating college and entering the work force, going to each other's wedding, possibly having kids and starting a family, and just living a completely different life in general. When it comes to the future, it scares me to be honest. I've been wondering about what I'll be doing in like 5 years, where I would live, how well I'll be doing in life, and where I would be spiritually too.

Originally, I was planning to graduate from UCI and enter the Marines as a military officer for a couple years before I actually start working. Once I told my parents that, they practically blew up just because of the fact that they don't ever want me to lose my life and having to bury their first son. Now that I think about it, I would feel the same way (wouldn't you?). I don't think I would let my first son join the marines and possibly face wars and even death. Luckily, my parents don't have to worry about this anymore. Recently my uncle told my dad that I can possibly get a job in the LG mobile department in San Diego once I graduate. If you guys didn't know, my uncle is the president and CEO of LG in Korea (surprising I know... hahah.) However, what really hit me was the real reason why I might possibly get this job. I heard my parents talking and I found out that they're trying to get me this job just because they don't want me to go to the marines. When I heard that, my heart just softened and really showed how much they care and love for me. I just feel blessed to have a family that really loves me. I guess I'm living in San Diego in like couple years? But then again, I wouldn't mind living in Irvine and commuting to work because I don't want to leave the place I call "home" and my beloved church =].

I give all my thanks to God for truly giving my so much more than what I really need. I'm also still pursuing in my promise to financially support churches and missionaries to break any financial struggles they are facing in their journey to building God's kingdom. I also want to support my loving friends in the future if they happen to face financial problems. It's weird to say but throughout the last year, I feel like the friends I made are the most loving and caring friends I had throughout the 20 years of my life. Throughout elementary, middle, and high school, friends came and went. At times it was my fault, at times it was their fault. Now that I think about it again, I don't have any friends I hang out today from high school, middle school, and elementary school. Its sucks and I felt really hurt and bad about back then. I'd hate to say this but now I'm happy because now I know the real meaning of friendship. Back then, I used to be the one that invites everyone over to my house, play games or w/e, always having to call them first to hang out while they never invite me, and tried to keep in touch by leaving fb comments or w/e. How come they never call me? How come they never invited me to hangouts? How come? The sad truth is, I dont think I meant much to them. I doubt they're even reading this and I bet even if any of them are, they probably don't care. I guess it really hit me when the friends I made the past year were the ones that would always call me to hang out, invite me to events, have real deep and intimate conversations, and basically love for who I am. I'm glad though that I went through all this because it made me tougher mentally and knowing the truth opens new doors and opportunities to redemption in life.

Other than that, a bible verse that motivates me is "The Lord is on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me?" Psalms 118:6. I guess fear of my future is one thing that's been on my mind. But this verse really made me realize that I need to really seek the Lord and do my very best to pray and obey his commandments. Really, there is nothing to fear when you really love God. I'll break the curse of the financial crisis churches and missionaries are facing so that one day, everyone will know the blessed news that Jesus shed his blood and died on the cross because he loves everyone with no boundaries.